04/24/02

so i was thinking about my dad alot today and it just sucks that i wont ever see him again like its so true what dr.cole says about how that feeling of loosin someone hits you on those times when you least expect it its been almost 7 years since he died from a stroke and it just sucks. my best friend gets to see her dad next week i am sooo happy for her she is soo lucky that she gets chances to see her dad and soon shell be with him again forever. i just wish that maybe i would get to see him again ya know? like it sucks thinking how life could have been with him here would my family be soo fucked up as it is now? would my brother of been healthy ? would my sister not of ran away? it just sucks thinking that he has never been there to see me graudate from anywhere elementary school, middle school and soon high school i know ppl always say like he is there watchin you but it would be nice lookin at the stands and actually seeing him ya know;/ its weird how life is happening and all of a sudden you get these moments where you pause and think but really think. is thhis as bad as something else is failing a test as bad as never seein your dad again? hmm